When one has chronic illness, cleaning is not always easy. No longer can we jump right up and expect to have the entire house clean in one morning or afternoon.
One has to plan to take breaks, and one of the most important things I have realized is that I have to give myself grace. It too the entire day to clean just my living room. Yes, you read that right, just my living room.
You want to know what the sad part is? I really did not even get to do everything I wanted to do in that room. I didn’t get the fan, baseboards, pictures or the windows. However, I have to learn to give myself grace.
There was a day that I could work 12 hours a day running a daycare, with children of all ages, keep my house clean, cook for the family, go to school full time and even make sure that my kids got taken to their after school activities.
Well, guess what? I have to learn not to beat myself up because I can no longer do the things I used to do. Yes, I could work outside the home, and I did for several years, even after my stroke, BUT when I came home I very rarely had any energy to give to my family.
So I ask you, how is that fair? I can either work 40 plus hours a week, but have no energy to take care of my family, or I can stay at home and have time and someenergy for my family. What is more important to me?
Well, as you can tell, it is my family. As one that has Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue and a survivor from a stroke, it is very difficult to keep the energy up that I need to use for cleaning the entire house in one swoop.
I spent the entire day cleaning JUST my living room and doing laundry ALL day!! I am exhausted and I still need to make dinner, finish this blog post and edit the video for my YouTube Channel. Guess what? It will not get done tonight, as dinner is more important, especially since it is with my family.
I have so many ideas spinning in my head, but the illness that is in me is fighting against me. In the past I have always beat myself up because I did not do what I used to, but, you know what? WHO CARES!!! If someone want to come over, they will just have to forgive the mess, otherwise I would never be able to spend time with them, makes sense right?
So with that being said, I will sign of so I can finish this post and get going on dinner. Tell me in the comments below how you take care of your house.
Until next time butterfly hugs,
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